Somehow, yesterday night, you didn't reply me.. I feel kinda sad and lonely, but then I thought, I've got nothing to talk to you. Still, I wished I'd seen a reply. :/
-feels a little rejected-
Keep telling myself, that you're busy and I should seriously wait until you come back then dig out all the interesting stories about there. Hopefully it comes true. I dreamt that you panicked because you didn't reply me. It felt so real and I felt so relaxed. But now.. I think I really annoyed you. :(
TODAY. I WOKE UP LATE. Like seriously. 7.45AM then fully awake. -blames phone-
I PRESSED SNOOZE AND IT DIDN'T WAKE ME UP AGAIN. Happened many times before but then, this time is SHITTY. So I went to math class, LATE. -.- So fast kena demerit point. Shit my life..
And so, I begged my BRATHAAAA to morning call me EVERY MONDAY 7AM.
I hate to be that late.
Lunched with PRABA~, Emily, JANNAH~, MAMA and Giogio. ^^
It was so fun! Had LOTS LOTS LOTS of stories being told. Then PAPA suddenly appeared but couldn't join us. HAHAHAHS. Something happened, and PAPA ended up sitting at our table, avoiding sum 1. HAHAHHAS. So cute.
MAMA suddenly said, DA DUDE never reply meeeeee.
Was thinking whether is it me, or he didn't reply MAMA too. If that's the case, then he's really busy. I'm such a selfish freak. :/ Really want to tell MAMA how I really feel 'cause she gives such awesome advice. :) I LOVE MY MAMA. <3 PAPA too!
I did start to lose a little feeling from you. I can sense a distance but I think I'm over feeling things and you might not be annoyed or something. But I can't help but feel that you really are.. It's me being too paranoid. I hate it. Maybe, I'm not for you or, just too much to handle and stuff.
But I really wish what I imagine would come true.. I wanna hold your hands, lay in your arms, feel the warmth, watch how you sleep and stare deep into your eyes.
All wild imagination, hopeless dreaming, stupid wishings.
The heart will tell. :)
See you, gummy bear in 4 weeks and 5 days.
CHIONG MATH!!!!!!!
/edited at 12mn
I've got the urge to do the CLS camper cheer, OMJZ. D:
I'm a C~LS camper, I'm a C~LS camper, I'm a C~LS camper, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I'm a C~LS camper, I'm a C~LS camper, I'm a C~LS camper, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP.
I make good friends beside me, I make good friends beside me, I make good friends beside me, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I make good friends beside me, I make good friends beside me, I make good friends beside me, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I make forever friendship, I make forever friendship, I make forever friendship, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I make forever friendship, I make forever friendship, I make forever friendship, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I'm a C~LS camper, I make good friends beside me, I make forever friendship, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
I'm a C~LS camper, I make good friends beside me, I make forever friendship, in my camp, WHERE, IN MY CAMP!
Mugging Day 8.
Today, I dedicated 8 hours instead of 10 into studying. So worth it, because I understood some points alr. ^^ Now, I'm waiting for the lecturers to go through!! I need to chiong!! Plus now, math is the priority because the test is coming on Tuesday. :/ So.. CHIONG MATH then talk. XD
Strawberry caught me not doing my 10hours. HAHAHAHHAS. So, I continued for like another 2 hours.
Been Skyping LOTS with XiaoLei, Farliyana and Wenxin. DAAAAMN FUNNY. I cannot tell you how many times we've screenshot, taken picture, laugh at all sorts of random things. So darn stupid, AND WE KEEP TALKING ABOUT SEC SCH DAYS. T.T
Good o' times.
Been thinking of you lately.. Really want to talk to you, but I'm always afraid that you find me annoying, distracting and that I'm disturbing you. But let me try again? HAHAHAS, here it goes. :)
-no reply-
Maybe not yet. I'm always so nervous talking to you, idk why. Like, I'm doing something wrong, doing something I'm not suppose to do. I'm suppose to continue studying. Why am I landing myself into this kind of situation.. -sigh-
Or maybe, I should silently wait till you finally returned or something. What is this.
Then, on another hand, I wish we could Skype all night 1 on 1, laughing at one another, starring at one another's face, talking and saying things we really want to say.. More of, what I want to say. :/
Life's good now. Just that, I'm being afraid of being rejected by you, having awkward moments everywhere. I think, we'd be friends is better than being something worse than that? Let's see how time goes.
Supporting you here, Gummy bear. :)
Goodnight.
FINALLY DAY 7!
Can't tell you how happy is it that one week is gone. ^^
Today, went to work. And there's nothing much I can say except I realise that KH's friend is super blur, cute and funny! HAHAHHAHAS. HOTPLAT. Kyah. XD
I'm starting to miss you more and more. I want you to tell me every detail of your days there. The immersion and really all the experiences. But I want to be selfish, the things you tell me, you don't tell the others. Let it be special to me, let me be special to you. :)
Oh well, time will tell.
Just promise to take care of yourself well. 'cause you are so open to challenges etc. HAHAHS.
Good night, sweet dreams, gummy bear! ^^
The Day 6.
Blogger has now officially turned my interface to the new one. I hate it. Why do they think that they are perfecting it when it's making it worse? D:
By the way, I tried waking up to 6am but failed. I guess my lazy self is returning. NOOOOOOO..
Today was good. Piggie cousin, Jia xin, is closer to us now, so we often talk across or something. HAHAHHAS, AND HE'S DAMN FUNNY. Plus, I wore my grey contacts! Wolf on prowl. I LIKE. XD
Spotted PAPA too! He wear until.. so.. guai looking. HAHHAS.
On a happy mood because of yesterday night. Talking to you was so funny! HAHAHAHS, how you listed out everything good about there and psycho-ing me to go during my third year. But then you had a minor food poisoning!! WTF. :( I curse the person who did this to you. T.T
Went to Dhoby Ghaut after school for some modelling thingy. Idk if I really want to join or not because I do have a little interest in there..... BUT SCHOOL? Hesitation..
And I feel like giving up work alr. The poor guy has to quit too!!!!!! WTS, MUST FORCE HIM TO QUIT.
Then went on a huge shopping spree before Lines went Botanic Gardens and we went for dinner at Swensens. What comes next was utterly awesome and stupid. HAHHAHAHAS.
I realised, this blog post is getting back to normal. XD
So here comes... the.. yah.
Hey you, don't know if you're reading this blog and you're knowing I'm talking about you.. But then, my feelings are clearly stated here. :/ I hope that if you found this blog or one day, I do state it to you, we won't be awkward. I'm really afraid that we would end up like that, not talking at all...
Also hoping that you are not a yellow light.. because you are the reason for my yellow light. Wishing that I'll be yours too. Everytime when I remember your face, I get an ache in my stomach. Everytime when someone mentions you, my heart starts to race. Everytime when teachers mention something that relates to you, I smile like an idiot.
You're the first. Or maybe, I'm just growing up and it's a passing thing. I hope it's not. I dream and imagine about all the things we can do together alone, wishing that it would come true. Can you let it realise?
Maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Rest well and take care, gummy bear. :)
What a day, 5
ONLY DAY 5, WTS, AND I'M HERE PANICKING ON HOW MY MODULES AREEE. So many happy things happened today! Freaking funny too..
And I came to realise, when you return, I only have like, 1 week to see you in school. How is that nice? I am hoping that you would lepak at CLS Clubroom everyday, maybe I can get a chance to sit next to you, laugh together, joke together and then go home together. :)
I know I'm scaring you off by chatting to you like a crazy girl, but it's just my insecurities playing up. I hope you'll know me better somehow.
Just saw some more cute updates of you. HAHAHAHS, why do you have to be so awesome? You're making me liking you even more and more. <3
Went to lepak at CLS clubroom from 4+ to 6+, super funny. I can't explain all the details but it was DAMN DAMN FUNNY. Esp when Kou Cai keep going SORRY, SORRY! I laughed like siao can. And Uncle Gerald's laughter keeps adding on. I wanted to die, please.
After that, Chuan Hao and gang entered. Few moments later, anyone who enters or leaves the clubroom, we would go,
'HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII'
'BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEE'
Freaking epic. I laughed until my stomach hurts and I cried tears of laughter.
Continue to joke joke joke. And went home being trolled at. HUSSEIN WAS SUPER FUNNY. But I saw Iman nearly cried because of someone with NO SELF-ESTEEM. Hahahas!
CLS IS MY LIFE.
Gummy bear, I hope we're both each others' life too. :)
Take care!
/edited
Today is also the last day for my first coloured contacts! MY LOVELY PURPLE..
Byebye.. :(
So now, I've changed to a 3-tone colour, ASH GREY. A little bit like a bad choice.. Because, I look weird if I turn my head?
BUT THEN, I LOOK LIKE A WOLF.
And now, to see my contacts clearer...
SO YAHHHH.
Goodbye! Time to consult brother!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Only day 4..
I seriously can't take how slow time and days has been passing for me. If only the weeks could go by like a rocket, it would be awesome. You're still a month plus away from me.. You're still that little distraction in my head. I can't really absorb lessons because, I really want to know what can really happen between us.
Been imagining so much shit that I'm drifting away from academics. I have to force myself to concentrate. I need to make PAPA, MAMA proud and get my Ah Gong's xiao long bao!
Today, I sms-ed Mr Ting, HE DIDN'T REPLY ME. T.T
Hopefully, our cooking challenge would totally work! With budget of $10, I hope it would turn out great, delicious, nutritious and WOW-ing. ^^
Went for practical briefing today.. And nearly missed a practical briefing today. -.- PRAY HARD WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN. He's still a good class rep, he just need to chill down A LOT.
Then went FC5 to chill out with XIAOLEI AND SHERLEEEYYY. MISS THEM LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS.
So, my math and chem is like shit now. Totally need to do those exercises in repetition and get my facts straight. I wanna chiong all the way for ACES. But I'm so sleepy noooowwww. :(
Everyday, I wish the green dot is beside your name, I dream that one day you would pop up and start talking to me about my days and stuff because I really hope I can just blabber all the shitty things that has happened. Or maybe, one tired day, you'll accompany me home.
All the crazy imaginations. -sigh-
Working on Sat also.. Idk when I want to quit.. sian.
Gummy bear, I wonder how you're doing over there. :/ Just hope you'll do awesome for your FYP now. :)
CHIONG MATH AND CHEM NOW. BYE BYE.
Hai, I miss you. Day 3
Everyday, time passes so fast. But then, the counting down of days are so slow, you're still weeks away from me! :/
Now I'm resisting the temptation to chat with you because I think you'll find me annoying 'cause I do find myself annoying, and you do have something to focus on. I guess, I'll really have to wait till week 6 that you'll be back and I can continue disturbing you.
Maybe I should just focus on my studies in the meantime instead of thinking stupid questions to ask you when you come back. HAHHAHAS.
Today, we had math lessons and I fell in love with math again and the teacher's ingenuity to see the shortcut. HAHHAS, it was so fun and funny because Lines gave me her suggestion of using the coloured note books as exercise books instead. FIIINE. Used so much infront for notes. In the end, have to tear it and staple it for memories sake~~ But then, still ok, still got time to change! ^^
Then went for practical!! SO FUN. SO SO FUN. MR TING IS AWESOME. VERY AWESOME. Hahahhas! And now we have cooking challenge! So to deal with oat this time. They showed us previous year's product and we saw camp chief, uncle Jiaxuan and MAMA~~ Then it was on to Year 3s one... which you know. I was waiting for yours to appear. HAHAHS.
It was fun, full of hype, I'm ready to chiong for GPA 4 and grab Ah Gong's xiao long bao. XD
Hopefully, I CAN BE MORE HYPER, HAPPY AND POSITIVE! ^^
Tomoz, lessons end at 11, gonna study super hard for XIAO LONG BAOS. and you.
Told lines lots of secrets, HAHAHAS, including you. XD
Don't catch a cold, gummy bear! ^^
Where are you? Day 2.
Yes, I'm freaking counting down to the day you are coming back. Seriously, where are you? :(
I'm feeling so stressed up and everything, I wish I could talk to you about what happened today and every other day. The next person I can find comfort in is strawberry. But I don't want to tell him everything. I'm so flustered, feeling so lousy and helpless. I'm at the losing end.
I wish you could be here to comfort me, to talk to me, saying that if I need any help, I could find you or something. But this is just so selfish.. It's not like you don't have stress on your own.
It's just my first day, and I'm losing it. I'm so confused and not understanding a single thing that's happening around me. Even a simple conversion I couldn't do. Spent like an hour dealing with just the first question. What is this shit.
Just hope that one day I can just lay in your arms and relax. Like being protected and knowing you'll be there. But then, I keep thinking, it won't come true. You won't like a girl like me. So crazy and fake. So insecure and paranoid. More like being someone small that you need to protect..
Kay, I shall just try to buck up and adjust everything fast.
OHH, HAHHAHAS, I just saw photo updates of you overseas! ^^ Gave me some energy to work on harder. Obsession. Addiction. Lovesick craze.
I'm missing you. Don't catch a cold, gummy bear. :)
Annnd, you look good in those jackets. HAHAHHAS.
Practical tomoz, hwaiting!
Drama Day 1.
Somehow, I slept and woke up thinking about you.. What are you doing now? Have you settled everything down, taking a tour round the campus or maybe having a rest before the whole trip starts. But then, after a few minutes of waking up. I felt nothing.. Like it's just another day. Not like what I've imagined the feeling to be- sad.
When I entered Facebook and see our convo, saw your new DP, the feeling came on again. My heart said I miss you and sank. Don't know what you did to me or what I'm thinking to make me feel like this, you make me do all the crazy things I wanted to do.
And I can't imagine I told PAPA about this. HAHHAHAS. But then, yeah. It was meant to be a secret like. Me. You. and my friends?
Then I went to work, I didn't have you in my mind.. Another working day with my funny friends. Until I went 'YES!' when my colleague asked if we're excited for school. He said is it because that I could see my eyecandy. Your funny personality came hitting on me and the reality that you are not in this country now. :/
I feel like, I want to know about you. About your life. But who am I to really know all these. I'm just a crazy junior who just randomly talked to you about stupid nonsensical stuff and you're just replying in kindness and respect. How was this conversation suppose to rub a spark off? I suddenly feel that, we're heading toward a senior, junior, brother sister kind of friendship. No.
Never really felt this way in my entire life. I feel like going all out for you. This is so one-sided.
So many dramatic things happened. The cleaner got a fight, my in-charge is dying, the world is fucked up, I feel so lost and confused and you're not around. Wish I could talk to you like friends would. More of like, you know my friends, I know your friends, when we talk, we would know who is who, what is what, and know the entire story.
Wish we had a story of our own.
This is so obvious that I'm writing to you. But how do I start?
The best thing is that. You, your face, your name, makes me smile. Hahas, how is this. I'm apparently playing songs to my thoughts. Mmm. This is too much to be told.
Is there a possibility?
Can't believe you made me forget about my biases. and you idiot. you were online! Hahahas! And I had a little cut that you didn't reply me or something.. Nothing important enough to talk to me anyways.. I told you to come back to tell. Heh.
I stared at your handsome face and perfect hair before your departure. The feeling, stays. Hahas. Say, I can't live without looking at your face. You're my obsession. You're my crisis. You're my lovesick craze.
This post is getting too long. and seriously, why am I writing this shit. Hahas.
Take care of yourself, gummy bear. :)
SCHOOL STARTS. I'm so excited and scared. What can I do.. Let me prepare now.
-this post was suppose to be in 15th April and I really miss you-
D-day.
I've never thought that I'll be writing this shit, feeling this shit, or this shit would ever happened to me or you'll be reading this shit because it's. Shit.
I actually had an awesome draft on how to write this shit but.. I forgot! Once I enter the dashboard, I feel like I have to joke about. I can't be serious.. :/
So, I'll try to be serious now.
When I first saw you, my heart seriously skipped a beat because you looked SUPPPEEEERRR like my bias. So, I liked you because you looked like him. And from then on you became my iCandy. Annnnd, you were on my mind like the whole night.
Wanted to be paired with you, but being paired with Strawberry was fun too! Plus it was damn funny when we two collided at the lift. HAHAHHAHAHS.
After that, Day 2, when Mama was 'missing', you appeared. I kept wanting to look at you but I couldn't. You just remind me of my bias and I felt like I was really meeting him.. My heart literally swirled.
AND WHEN YOU APPEARED IN THE DANCE ROOM, sitting RIGHT in front of us, I died. Like a serious. We gathered in a circle, did the cheers, you looked happy, I felt happy and you gave us a shock screaming X!
I laughed and laughed at that moment. And when you said orange squeeze, I squeezed right infront of you. Never really felt like this or even felt like doing it. All the times, it was imagination. Guess, I wanted to be closer to you.
Felt a little sad when you left. HAHAHS, why am I talking all this shit.
Anyways, after the camp, I mustered up the courage to talk to you so randomly. And I think I annoyed you, so yah..
Now, I have to survived six weeks very an empty slot in my heart. Or maybe I'll wake up someday in the six weeks that this is merely a stupid crush because of looking alike.. Who knows?
Why am I writing this like as though you're gonna read this shit. Hahhas, I'm thinking too much of you now.
Have fun, my gummy bear. ^^
And the days starts now..
Emotions run high..
So today, I went to work 'cause a day without FOP. I don't really know where to start or how to really explain what went on but then, I just need and outlet to let my thoughts run high and everything if not I'm going to have BIG trouble sleeping.. Like last time.
Where do I staaarrrttt..
So it's like, someone called me dumb dumb, memories flood, emotions flood, thoughts flood and then tears flood. Aiyu comforted me and I found myself selfish though I know where she's coming from.
I've really hardly have a thought for myself. I'm always scared that I bring trouble to people, messing their messed up life or giving them extra pressure. I always think that I can hold it up 'cause.. Look at Daddy MJ! He lived through those pressure for 45 years, why can't I. So I kept holding on, looking my life positively, looking at people in the best manner possible. But yah, I kept trusting people's words, thinking that they are REALLY speaking their minds.
Naive.
I don't really have a good time at home, that's why I usually avoid home until the time where I cannot avoid and just go home. I coop inside my room. ALWAYS.
But then, memories of CLS FOC flooded too, and the fact that I've always have my PAPA and MAMA plus my awesome Animals, my life is really near complete.
So yes, I'm currently back to my happy self thanks to Aiyu, Kanghong, MY LOVELY PUSS IN BOOBS and Strawberry! Strawberry even gave me a video to listen. Hahhas..
The reason why I really love friends over family. And my story.. I'll just keep it and move on.
^^
MY EYECANDY, I'M GONNA MUNCH HIM. XD
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