So, it's been long, again. HAHHAAS. Been thinking of who I am lately 'cause I realise, I'm not that kind of typical girl who is girly girl neither a manly girl. Does it even make sense...... OTL
Therefore, I'm trying to see if I could actually reflect myself in the mirror in words.
Maybe it's because I'm really unpredictable and neither am I typical unless you hang out with me often to know what turns me on and off. And neither would I head into mainstream... LOL BEING SPECIAL~~***
First of all, "Diamonds are girl's best friend." does not and would never work on me 'cause wts, DIAMONDS ARE SO PLAIN. I would rather sapphires, rubies and amethyst rather than diamonds. 'cause why? They have colours! I love things with colours. :D
As much as I would love to lose weight, I love eating fried and sweet stuff. Maybe I compensate this with proper food. HAHHAS I always start my buffets with dessert and practically keep heading for more desserts than the main courses out there. I love KFC's two piece chicken too, THOSE YUMMEH FAT JUICES and also I love to eat steamed chicken's skin. Really really don't get why people don't like it.. that's the best part of it!! I know there's lots of fat but that's where all the flavour lies!!
Hmm, next would be mushy words... which can make me strangle myself. It's like, ew. HAHHAS IDK WHY. Rarely is aww, but mostly is EW. ESP. Farloy's pick up lines and greasy words, I could totally just feel all my hair stand and feel my brain nauseating. HALP. HAHAHAHS
But I don't categorise someone's heartfelt words as mushy 'cause it's their feelings in words, makes me understand and makes me feel how they feel, which I like it a lot.
And nope, I don't like anyone calling me babe or honey or dear or baby, like, ew. Esp. blogshop owners, HAHHAHAS. I'm so sorry towards my boyfriend, but hahahahhahahahahahahs, just noooooooo 'cause neither would I like to call them that, it's just so not me, weirded out. OTL But I don't mind "Love." or "Darling." Sounds mature. :D
Well, I can be really mushy to the people I love tho. IT'S JUST RARE AND IF I'M IN THE MOOD TO. :P
I'm not girly girl 'cause I'm not dainty neither vain tho I care for my looks quite a lot but not in the way people think about girls. I don't have any beauty regime, just normal like wash your face before and after you sleep.. If I go out and to look nicer, just wear coloured contacts, liner and tinted lipbalm. I totally give up on putting foundation and stuff 'cause it's hella tiring!! Plus, these are enough for me to look nicer so, HAH DONE DEAL.
Basing on situation, my seating position can very much be like a man. LMAO HAHAHAHS BUT BASE ON SITUATION YO.
From there, I think you could figure out that I'm super lazy and, yeap, I am. :)
My room is damn messy and my things are like everywhere in my house. BUT I CAN FIND THEM IN THIS WAY. If it's so neat, I won't even want touch it larh, like leave it, don't mess with it!
One weird thing is that I will neatly arrange things for others instead of myself. HOHOHO, free labor. LMAO maybe it's 'cause I love to help others more than myself and that I value others more than myself. ^^/
And so, I think for others more than myself and often putting myself in their shoes. HAHAHS I'm also not the kind of girl who will let other people help me unless I need/want their help. 'cause to my mind it's like, ruining my plan? Damn, idk how to explain.
It's more of, if I ask for your help, I REALLY NEED YOUR FREAKING HELP or you don't touch me at all. I have hands and legs and brains to do it, lemme do it. I don't wanna trouble you either.
So, aka, I really detest girls/ladies who let their boyfriend/husband carry their bags for them. Friend is ok larh~ 'cause it's like teasing and playing around but this is.. LOL you getting a slave? Unless it's damn heavy then yeah~ but if it's your HANDBAG or any bag that has girly touches to it, then pls, for the sake of YOUR MAN'S PRIDE can you just carry it yourself? You have the mouth to say "no" and the rights to force him not to carry your stuff.. It just looks and feels wrong to me, letting a guy carrying a handbag. LOL ok, maybe some guys love giving princess treatment and some girls (GIRLS) love being treated like that, but just not me. It's not chivalry pls, guys, 'cause one day you'll be sick and tired of carrying your girl's stuff and you would question why you wanna torture your pride as a man, so don't start it in the first place.
Ah! Another big point. Branded goods aren't my type even though I'm quite materialistic.. Especially for bags. I need no LV, Prada or whatevaaaaa, just a normal bag that is good enough to carry my stuff is enough~ Like those $5 tote bags, ya' know. :D And their designs are nice too, so why not.
Don't really get the hype of exp. bags.. they look ugly to me.. Maybe 'cause I prefer something nice and meaningful on it rather than the brand itself. HAHAHAS But really, what for pay so much for a bag. If it's a phone, it's understandable, at least there's many functions to it but, A BAGGGGG. WTS. What else can it do other than to carry your stuffffff?
But for beauty products, the most ex I can go is $40. Call me cheapo but I'm a tight budget person. :D
Annnd, Disney movies. LOL I.. really never know the entire story of one princess, maybe except for Frozen's. But I don't get Disney, it's too fake and fairytale-romantic.. you won't even get this person on Earth in the first place. For now, I think Disney is taking on a more realistic view on society? Which is good and suit my taste.
But I like Marvel and DC, and I know it's fake too. But at least the romance side is something that no one will ever know how it is like and is kinda real too. I mean, dating a hero, it's gonna be DAAAMN TOUGH. Similar to dating a celeb, just this is more dangerous!! So it makes more sense.
Oh, soft toys and plushies are annoying to me. HAHAS I might go crazy in the store but please, just don't buy me one.. It's gonna rot in my room and have to throw it away. I rather you gimme the money you spent on buying that, to me. \($.$)/ HAHAHHAS but really. How do the other girls really love it when someone buys them a huge plushie.. so freaking obstructive to bring it home..Hah. PLUS ALL IT DOES IS TO SIT ON YOUR BED AND DO NTH. Maybe it brings memories, maybe you love plushies, well, I just don't get that part. OTL
Then, one very obvious point of me. I LOVE TO GAME. But of course, game in the games that I know how to play.. Unlike LoL or Dota, which I ultimately catch no freaking ball so I don't play it. Other than that, I'M HAPPY. HAHAHAS I love shooting games, dk why. I love testing my accuracy ever since young. Heh.
And, I'm, erm, very vulgar. HAHAHS That's when you step on to my land mine, you're gonna say "OHMAIGWAD" to hell. ^^ So I always say: "I'm kind, don't make me bite." But I love to joke in a vulgar way and if I do, it means you're really mah good friend! :D Esp, my cliques!! I always spew the eff word like it's free (but it is free, what) in a playful manner, no harm done. You can detect my mood easily.. so yeah, BEWAREE.. Zee eff word eez mah best fwen~
I have my limits to my patience even though it might seem that it can stretch a million miles long, and I don't really show hell upfront tho. It's more like giving you cold hell.. hahahas the irony. But yeah. I'm good. And I forgive way tooooo easily because I focus lots on the positive things of a person. Tho it doesn't mean they can repeat it.. If they do again then maybe that's the last time they'll see me talking to them. HAHAHAHS but honestly, the second time is a choice of yours because clearly you know where the land mine is.
I'm highly emotional.. and I believe in horoscope so.. I blame it on Virgo. HAHHAHAS Honestly, never have I not cry in a cinema. Just anything that has to do with harmony, peace, teamwork, success, a good guy's death, I CREEEEEYYYY MAHHH EYEEESSS OUTTTT. And I'm easily influenced by surrounding moods, especially negative ones. T__T super sensitive to them.
I sound like I have bi-polar or schizophrenia and I do wonder. But I don't think I have it, maybe not so extreme, maybe it's natural.. Maybe. .-.
I'm super picky with food!! Forever eating atas food.. Idk why, I always find the more expensive one appetizing then realising the expensiveness and head for a cheaper alternative. I guess my life is all about cheaper alternative in things. I love fruits, love a few species of veggies and love meat. HAHHAHAS I do go for interesting flavours too! I think this is the only adventurous part of me. XD
And this.. err, I love catching insects and eating insects. NOT CATCH AND EAT THEM OK, unless it's ants and that was last time. But still, I don't run and scream when I see a lizard or roach, I'M SUPER INTERESTED IN CATCHING THEM INSTEAD. HAHAHS Maybe it's 'cause of my mum? But idk why since Pri sch, I'm not scared of insects. o.o maybe for the love of science~~ And they are cute.. except for roaches, they are so alien-like!!! Ew.
I actually did describe myself a little during the 30 day blog challenge found in September 2012 which if anyone is interested or bored can just take a peek. Part of me in words is there..
So yeah. What the heck am I. o.o
I can actually think in both, a guy and a girl's way, which makes me question my mind's gender. Do brains have gender? HAHAHHAS WTF.
Ok, I'm freaking lazy to continue alr. There's so much of me to put in words, I'll just simplify everything to the best I could.
I hate negativity and negative feelings, I feel that anyone whom I care for should never be unhappy and that the only one that can be unhappy is me. But I'm negatively positive. I forgive and trust people's words too easily, but it's not all 100%. My imagination is spectacular till the point I somehow feel its real. I always imagine possible situations that might happen before making decisions and to make my heart be mentally prepared. My emotions are scary and easily affected by surroundings. I'm quite calm and assertive (aka pokerface) until nervousness breaks in. I dislike being lost and unclear instructions therefore, I don't like it when people are hinting or giving clues, like wtf, just say what you want to say manz. But I do play hints sometimes, to tease people. I can't stand nor sit drama and fake people 'cause obviously that isn't them so for what put up this act? -.-
I love nature a lot, so, cities aren't really my thing. COUNTRYSIDE FTW~
I hardly dislike anyone and would.. I guess, never hate anyone? I won't really reach the level of hate no matter what the person does, 'cause I'll forgive myself to forgive them. I like respecting people, makes me stay humble and makes the person feel appreciated. Even if you annoy me, I would still reply your irritating bullshits in form of respect, but you can feel me being annoyed. I value honesty first and respect second. Actions more than words, I love long texts and letters but appreciate small gestures too. Never liked promises tho, 'cause it's bound to be broken. Relationships between humans, between humans and other species and between humans and things are really precious to me, so I really love everyone/everything whom/which I care for. Everything I own have a significant emotional value towards it, therefore my room is fill with stuff collecting dust. (or maybe I'm just super lazy to throw...)
I think I'm a scary person because of what my mind thinks, I mean c'mon, the way I could think of how to kill someone who is stepping on my limits. But I can understand people's action easily, find their good and bad by just them doing normal stuff and speaking to others. I love people watching, and would often imagine me as them in their moment, what would they see and how would they feel. I just love anyone who can make me laugh all the time and I love making people laugh. I don't mind being silly around friends, making myself look stupid in front of people I care for. I love going crazy with people.
I love and hate my family a lot, I'm glad to have them but sometimes wonder why I have to exist in this family. I really love giving love to people who really deserves them but do not receive them often, 'cause I want them to feel appreciated since I know how it feels having the world away from you. I'm used to loneliness a lot, so I don't really mind being alone and greets loneliness like a friend! :) Tho, I'm quite active around people, I do rather want time by myself, just feeling calm and serene, to empty my mind and break off the chains of society- Introvert Extrovert. I'm always quiet till you open me up.
I feel like an open book, I'm easy to read and understand 'cause what you are looking at is who I am, just at different stages. I'm independent, I guess, but I do really need to rely on someone sometimes and the person would be Michael Jackson. :)
Erm, I do detest stupidity especially when it comes to common sense and when someone doesn't have it and talks at the wrong timing... whyyy doooo theyyyy existtttt. Urgh. BUUUT. In form of respect, I'll just hold my facepalmings and chant "fuck you" in my heart. HAHAHAHS Of course, if it's funny, it's funny, if it's cute, it's cute. I don't really have problems with this unless it's like Alvin. HAHHAHAHAS Sorry Alvin, you're still my friend kays!
Hmm, money. I treasure it a lot, and people calls me money face, but really what. If the stuff is of no useful value then gimme the monetary value instead. :D HAHHAHAS
I really dislike people doubting me 'cause I grew up in an environment where people (aka family) are always doubting the things I can do and AM CERTAIN THAT I COULD DO. Like fuck, you're not me, you don't fucking know what's on my mind and what I can do, there's no fucking reason why you should doubt me unless I doubt myself first. And I will always tell people if I doubt myself 'cause I don't want to do something that I know I can't or don't have the affirmation to do so. I hate people assuming stuff and jumping into conclusions too.. So rumors should just go to hell.
I do have this stinky know-it-all attitude, but really, if I have the facts, I'm gonna kill you with it. And I don't like it when people who have the ability to help themselves, just don't want to use their brain. PLEASE, YOU CAN SURVIVE, DON'T CLING ONTO PEOPLE.
I have quite an affinity with guys more than girls 'cause I know how bitchy and fake girls can be. AND IT'S SO ANNOYINGGGG, so I avoid making friends with females. Well, a lot of people would see this as flirting but yo, I have more things to talk about to guys than girls leh. Guys is just no drama and straight forward, so I prefer making friends with them. EXCEPT FOR THIS CZY WHO KEEP HINTING SO MANY STUFF. HAHAHAS chou brother..
Oh, I have hair fetish. NOT REALLY CALL FETISH, MAYBE OBSESSION? HAHAHHAS I always look at the hair and then the fashion of someone. Yeah, I judge people, but I don't base them on that? Does it make sense. LOL~~ Annndd, I get irritated by people who have no fashion sense. Hahahs. I'm vain on hair too. I would love to dye my hair crazy colour, have glitter everywhere, have pretty make up on (if I have the energy to), do my nails, get crazy, like Ke$ha. ;D More sane tho. Heh.
I love mature people, like omg, we are of the same levellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. LIKE MEETING SOMEONE OF THE SAME SPECIES IN AN ALIEN WORLD YOU KNOW. HAHHAS.
I'm more right-brained than left. I love paintings, colours, arts, music, literature, language but yet I love facts and science, a little of maths but never ever thinking about accounting. And I study smart than hard, so I often revise at the last minute. It still work~ Average scores. :D
ok larh, I really can't think of anymore alr and it's a super duper long post. To summarize..
I'm kind, don't make me bite. :)
omfg this is like a encyclopedia of me.