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Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Why did I.

Ok, this is kinda gonna be an emotional post. VIRGOS ARE EMOTIONAL KAYS, LIVE WITH IT.

I'm kinda confused at everything. I'm like a real life hermit. Thoughts are running through, so, the sentences might not even make a single sense, but my brain can. Imma just say how I really behave in the eyes of the public. Due to over-thinking, the public may view me as a attention seeker, wants sympathy, no life, despo for love, proud bitch. I do have those anyways, but I'm showing it more obvious now.

-opening me does have it's super bad side effects, but I'm blaming no one-

Somehow, no one can understand how I feel but I also somehow think that I can understand why and how people feel. Too much of over-thinking.. I sometimes don't feel like I exist for myself at all. Like always in others' shoes.

-all Daddy MJ's fault! Hahahhas, always saying that-

Now I face the biggest emotional shit in the entire life of mine. Relationship.. -.-
I wish I was brave enough in the past to taste how having a boyfriend is like so that now, I wouldn't care about it at all. -sigh-
Really am giving whale up 'cause the possibility is diminishing until like an atom and everything starts to be awkward because we both have to act like we don't know a thing when we both know about what we're not suppose to know and I have to continue to act like I really don't know that you know and that I know what you don't want me to really know. Yes, tongue twister, riddle me that! -I love playing with words-

Now the focus is on bear.. But I think he seems to know larh. -.- SO FREAKING OBVIOUS. If he doesn't know, I'll kill myself manz. Anyways, he's the real one that I dream to be with. A bit too despo..... Heh.
I'm actually on a lookout for him EVERYDAY IN SCHOOL. meh. :P
Can't forget the face he gave when he said Hi. I'M SO GLAD I WORE CONTACT LENS

Annnd, another thing. I always or 99% of the time type out what I think. And the way I express it is real.

hahahhahahahahs-> hehe, funny!!
HAHHAHAHHAS-> HAHHAHA, DAMN + SUPER FUNNY/HAHHAHAS, :P or just one big laugh.
(I love to laugh loudly rather than keeping it in, HAPPY MARRRH)
WTS!!!!-> WHADDASHIIIIIIIIIIT!!

So caps does mean I'm agitated or loud. Hahhas! I also use appropriate smileys to fully express my thought, message, feelings and words. So what I'm typing to you is the really my brain talking to you. Plus nowadays, in real life, my feelings are so obvious. If I sian, I'm really having the -.- face everywhere.

I really sometimes wish I can appear in a state of oblivion and run freely on lush green land. Hearing the birds chirp, the tender grass cushion every step I take, breathing in the freshest air on air. Then I'll stare at the sky and admire how beautiful nature can be. Hopefully there's a clear freshwater lake or pond nearby where I can see the sun's reflection on the crystal clear water. That would be paradise..

I miss traveling and taking photos of the nature..

People need to realise that I don't always hate on others and always willing to give second chances even when the trust is broken because there's this strong belief in me that everyone has one positive thing about them and it's just that I can't see it.
Naive? BLAME ON DADDY Hahahas.

-butifyoureallygetonmynerves, don'tblamemeformistreatingyou-

(the worst shit would be when I told you where you went wrong and I gave a obvious hint but you choose to continue your irritating nonsense!)

So,
Yeahyeah, hopefully dreams and wishes come true. Today, had a great day at the library running, dancing and racing. Then went Jcube to eat free PPL~ Hahhas, Kanghong. :D
Chatted together with Shawn and Jer(?) then lepak at the ice skating rink having heart attacks of people falling down before coming home and writing all these things down.

Only a few people know really how I feel(abouttherelationshipthingy). Giogio, Lines, Edmond, PAPA, Shinying, Charlene and Franklin. The only people I can really trust and I will protect with my life. Will not give my friendship up with them. :)

So glad I met them.

EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRGHT~
DADDY'S GONNA MAKE IT RIGHT FOR ME EVEN IF IT DOESN'T. Right Daddy? HAHHAAS. <3<3

Goodnight! Time for me to do running man!

Monday, June 25, 2012

3th Year.

3 years, it has been. The feeling is still fresh like yesterday. I remembered every moment after I heard the news, I remembered every detail on how you helped me out in my life when I had no one to turn to. You gave me friends from all over the world I've never thought of meeting. You taught me so many things about life.. and changed the way I think. ♥ I love you, Michael. Keep dancing on.. We'll moonwalk together. :)

I wrote that on facebook. Basically summarising all the feelings and gratitude for Daddy. It's still a wound healing..

Not long ago, I've also written a post about MJfam, on how different it was. But I know, deep down, we are all the same. Especially those fans that I've known for 3 years now. Time just flies so fast.

How 2010 went by..

Was pouring out my emotions on @Us4MJ, suprisingly, so many MJfam retweeted them. I really missed those times where me and Dawn would just do this the entire day without returning back to our personal account. MJfam was just too hyper and fun to be with! Really really makes you forget the blues of the day.

When I was really sad, angry, disappointed in myself, MJfam would always cheer me up with Daddy's songs. They were also another part of my motivation to study. I don't want to let them down, never..

Knew that it's quite bad to flood my personal account. It will seem like some despo emo person looking for some stupid sympathy. -.- For quite some time, I keep having complains. That's why I also had @ForMJTweets, and I can't believe that from that account, I actually inspired more people to open a separate account for their MJ thoughts. I love Daddy! ^^

This time, it feels different, because that idiot is now in injustice jail time, 4 YEARS AIN'T DO ANY GOOD. It feels like we've reached a benchmark. I felt like I could let him go from my heart, where he can moonwalk freely but no, soon there were boycotting, court cases and lies from the media. The worst, those young immature fans of other artistes who didn't learn a single speck or respect starts to banish him. HAD TO GET BACK ON MY PROTECTION. -sigh- We are only his defense and voice left.

The Soldiers of Love.

Dear Daddy,

Thanks for being there and giving me such lovely friends that I can't bear not to survive in this world. Thanks for showing the world's cruelty and stupidity. It's a shame to be a human, ain't it? :)
I know you're in paradise. I'll take your hand, and we'll step on together, as a family.

Loveyoumore,
ELF.

This is how 2012's June 25th went.
Lighting candles later..

Won't want to explain how the academic went.
-saw bear! which was the only happy thing happened today-

Just one realistic update,
My outfit for today, since peeps say wear pink. ^^
Love the owl necklace.

Goodbye. :)

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Missed me?

YESYES, I know the answer is NO. Hahahhahas.. Kay, I'm lazy to update nowadays, like a serious. Been too procrastinating and watching too much RUNNING MAN. <3<3

Some little updates~
I finally changed my contacts, from beautiful perfect BLUE to HONEY AMBER. I was actually late in changing the contacts and I actually wore the expired contacts during the PIB dinner. No wonder I got red and dry eyes after that!! It took a week to recover. -.-
And, tbh, I don't like the colour. I look like EDWARD CULLEN. WTSSSS. NOOO. -regrets-

PHOTOS TAKEN IN TOILET! HAHHAHAS.
Erhem, main focus is the EYES.

Without flash!

Without beanie!
I seriously cannot live without the beanie at home. HAHHAHAHAHS.
Kay, so yah. Didn't quite like it. :(

Tuesday went to school to "STUDY" and then went to JP with Lines and Digimon to watch Madagascar 3!! HAHAHAS, yeah, I watched it again and cried at the same parts. It's too touching! :'(
After that da bao and go bangla park and nom! HAHAHHAHAS, LONG TIME NO USE "BANGLA PARK". Talked and chit chatted a LOT. Found some secret out...... -sigh-

Wednesday: MARINA BARRAGE!! With XiaoLei, WenXin and Peggy~
Bought A LOT OF STUFF THERE!
Inclusive of SUSHIS. Nomnomnom..
And then Wenxin brought her DSLR over, and I got in charge of it. FILLED WITH MY CAMWHORING.
HAHAHHAS, so my own cam was actually abandoned. XD
Look of the day~
But then, 'cause the DSLR soon no batt, so used my cam! Took some special moments~
Peggy doing something special!
THIS!!
Like a nice manz!! I LURB EET. -kisses-
After that, it was about to rain, so we planned to walk to MBS. WHO KNEW, THE GARDENS BY THE BAY NOT OPEN. So we actually WALKED all the way back to Marina Bay MRT. -.-
Went to Raffles City. BUT THEN, WE ALIGHTED AT THE WRONG STATION. T.T

-why isn't Raffles City placed in RAFFLES PLACE?!-

Met up with Jianing for dinner at BIBIGO~ Peggy had to go home first.. :(
THIS WAS WHERE SIWON, EUNHYUK AND SUNGMIN CAME AND EAT!!
My bibimbap! $15
then next one was unexpected.
Ddeubbokki. $14. PAN FRIIIIIED. I want the non pan fried one!! :(
Xiaolei's spicy soup!
Wenxin's Kimchi Fried Rice!
In the end, everything was too spicy to finish.. I nearly died finishing it. D:
MEBDA!

Then Thursday.. SLACKED AT HOME ALL DAY~ Did RED Camp 8 NINJA cheers, including power cheer, RED Camp 8 Mass Dance, RED Camp 8 Mass cheer and persuading senior to join Talent Time!! Super funny. xP
-I seriously miss RED Camp 8. :/-

Friday was the 3.142 family's outing! But actually is more of the CLS clique, EVERYONE IS INVITED TO JOIN!
-actually skipped pool training for this, guilty of all charges, about to die from it-

Some photos for you? :D
They played water captain's ball! ^^
And..
Iman had to rest halfway due to repeated cramps. HAHHAHAHS.
Then, PAPA dropped by with ice cream.. Updated him and sister on my decisions. AND PAPA UPDATED WITH HIS CUTE STORIES. HAHAHHAHAS.

BIRD's NEST WITH BIRDIES~ :D

After like 2 hours, Bing Feng and Howard came.. And... the interesting conversation between me and Howard began. I SERIOUSLY CANNOT KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT. I really hate telling lies.. I'm like used to telling only the truth.
-sigh-
So, Howard and Bing Feng knows who I find irritating. HAHHAHAS. And I sort of find everyone irritating. But most of the people, I still love you~~ MOST OF. There are some who I just can't wait to slap them and say shut up. -.-

Went back and makan by the rockwall!
CLS IS MY LIFE!
Then we start jamming songs.
IT WAS AWESOME MANZ, like the entire gang go join Talent Time hao liao!

TODAY! Went out with the Animals! :DDDD
Lovely ghostly photo taken by Aiyu~
SO LONG NO SEE OUR LOVELY GIRAFFE ALR!!!! :'(
Went to Club Avatar for Blogshop spree~~~
SAW QIUQIU, YUTAKI, ERIC AND SOPHIE!! OMJZ, YUTAKI IS JUST PERFECT. THEY ALL ARE. I'M LIKE, YUTAKI, IS HE EVEN REAL, OHGWAD, HE WAS GLOWING. -fangirls-
Qiuqiu and Sophie are just so pretty!! :D Eric is handsome. ^^
Squeezed through the club and bought cheap stuff!! :)

Went to Vivo with Liews and Aiyu. Bought ice cream! YUMZ.
Went to the pet shop and squirm. HAHHAHHAS, THE PUPPY WAS SO CUTE.
Then went to shop! ^^
This is my buying for today! The feather crop tee and the middle white-purple dress both $5 from the flea!! Cheap right? The quality ain't bad too!
Neon Pink crop tee from F21, $15.
I bought 5 Etude House nose pore strips too~ GSS, 20% off, $3.60! I LOVE THEIR PORE STRIPS.
I feel like buying Rubi Shoes' high cut shoes.. $10 ONLY LEHHH. WTHHH. And the TOPSHOP's galaxy leggings, $49! D:

Need to save money for a cam of my own!!
This is a damn long post. HAHAHHAS, school starting soon! D:
Shall continue running man.. But before that... emotional talk.

Hopefully you are not trying your best to find something in me to like about.. Just go according to your heart. As long as you are happy, I'm happy for you. These feelings can't be forced and don't be pressured. :)
We can always stay as friends..

And to another, I think I'm really too annoying for you. I do know I sound desperate but then, you're the first. IDK how to say it.. Really wanna know you better and it does cut a little that you talk to many others. But who am I anyways?

I keep saying let the time flow.. but I can't, I want to know the outcome of everything, I don't want to tug on anymore.. If it's meant to happen, let it happen. I hate the lies and acting.. It's just so dumb.
I need to buck up on my studies too.
-June 25th coming. IDW IT TO-

Goodbye and goodnight! :D

Sunday, June 17, 2012

HARRY POTTER THE EXHIBITION.

When the news just came out like in March, I TOTALLY KNEW I WOULD ENTER THIS EXHIBITION AND IT IS A MUST!!
So, YESH, the day came!! Which was yesterday! :D

Met up with Aiyu and Min Aung to go to the Arts and Science Museum at MBS. Like, finally, got a reason to step in there.
Went in and the queue was maaaaad. And the prices for the tix is WORTH IT. $20 for Singapore Resident!!! $24 for foreigners. Bought the 2pm admission one.
YOU CAN ACTUALLY SPEND YOUR ENTIRE DAY IN THE EXHIBITION. The 1 hours doesn't count at all larh.

So, after we bought, WE JUST GO INNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~
Adrenaline rush when you see the flying car!!!!
And unfortunately, no photography allow once we go past these things below. :(
THE MOVIE POSTEEERRRSSS~

The front harry potter is actually the words casted on to the fog!!
BORING THAT WE COULDN'T TAKE PHOTO! MinAung was like, CAN WE TAKE PHOTO CAN WE. CAN? HAHAHHAS.

But we had fun pulling the mandrake and throwing the qudditch ball. XP
THE BEST PART IS SNAPE'S ROBES AND DARK FORCES AREA. OHMAIGWAAAAD, LIKE A HOLY MANZ. It's like you can feel their presence, and those are the things that they actually USE and WEAR.
And also, the dementors aren't just an empty air or invisible things under the robes. THERE IS A TAIL. Andand you can hear Voldemort's whispers which are quite scary because you will start listening out for these things and it's craze. All you focus is the whispers.

Oh! The starting is awesome too. And I screamed at everything Hufflepuff. THE HOUSE FLAGS ARE JUST GRAND. -dead-

Then yeah, I didn't bring enough money. :(
So ended up borrowing from MinAung andddd, I BOUGHT A HUFFLEPUFF SHIRT, A HUFFLEPUFF BEANIE AND A CHOCOLATE FROG! All for $88. D:
So I just like spent $100+ alr. -sigh-

Then we spazz outside the museum for like 1 hour then go home! :D
MINAUNG'S DSLR IS LIKE A COOL.
Me trying the soap flavour. OHGWAD, IT TASTES LIKE WASHING MACHING DETERGENT.

Ate my chocolate frog and got GILDEROY LOCKHART! :D -wantsSNAPE-
CAMWHORE TIIIME.
I LOVE MY HAIR HERE~ And wearing the beanie like a PROUDPUFFIE. :3
Couldn't stop obsessing with them at home!
BUT NICE MANZ, I'M SO OBSESSED WITH THEM. So! Whenever I'm going mugging, I'm gonna wear my Hufflepuff shirt and beanie! We are known for our loyalty, patience and HARDWORK. ;)

-gotta love the Jaejoong poster behind. <3<3 -

IT WAS AWESOME!! THE ENTIRE EXPERIENCE WAS GREAT.
THANKYOU J.K ROWLING!!