Hi guys.
Currently not in any mood to be happy or sad, I'm just trying not to feel anything. I don't know what to feel at all, literally. And I desperately need to gain back my positivity.
Just realise how negative and depressing my posts are.. am trying to insert some hype somewhere but today, somehow, Idk why I feel so empty and.. yeah.. pathetic. -sigh-
It's that word again.
It sort of sums up humanity, life and being alive. What are we chasing as humans, what are we doing to ourselves, why are we doing this, how did humanity become so inhumane, when will we see the change that we want to see. Who and what are we trying to be?
Then as you think, in the end, we all die. We'll die with the knowledge. So what if we knew this much? So what if we could live forever? So what if we found cure to cancer? When humanity is wiped out, these knowledge are useless 'cause mother nature does what she does. I mean, chasing so hard in this life? When we won't be remembered at all. Destroying so many other lives/species and Earth itself while thirsting for progress.
Why are we so pathetic.
We've become slaves of one another and towards money. Why and how...
I don't really know what should I be thinking.. Exam just makes all these ring in my head.
Yes, we should cherish this life we have when many others don't even have a chance. But really, coming to think, we are all of the same level, just that we are suffering at different levels and perspective. Others are suffering from the basics, we are suffering intellectually.
What we modernised people are doing is physically and mentally draining. and stupid.
We created so many levels of difficulties ourselves just to survive against one another. Stupid?
And yeah, we should cure stupidity too.
It's just a crime being human. I never liked my physical form of who I am. Why can't I just be a cat, a bird, a dolphin, a butterfly or even a rat.. I don't want these intelligence and complexity of being alive, I just want to hunt and sleep to survive. Why tire myself out.
FuckMyLife.
And tomorrow, a practical of nagging and whispers. Suffering yet again.. Dying is such a nice option, you know. You'll just give temporary sadness and enjoy paradise yourself, freeing yourself from the chains of stupid standards in society.
Humanity just suck.
And no, I'm not suicidal. I'll find a way to get myself out of this shitty feeling and be the sun of my own darkness.
"Everyone is lacking of true happiness. We've lost it ever since we learnt how to speak and count."
-Me
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