So.. I was scrolling through FB and I finally saw JinnyboyTV & N.O.C's fantastic cinematography.
It really is, mind speaking. Not that it has to be on breakup in love, but relationships like friendships. We all have those days where we accidentally yet purposefully drift away from someone, something and somewhere. Moments that lead to long lost oblivion, like you found your freedom, found a new space, found some fresh air to breathe again.
I have to admit, I kinda live my mind and thoughts like those videos. I talk myself in and out of situations, analyze stuff and guessing the future. I would drift off to my own world, like a lonely soul floating around a beautiful night scape, 'cause honestly, night is the seduction of the heart, soul and mind.
Your mind, the place to feel lightweight and also the place to feel stressed out. All emotions felt, you can live it in your brain by imaginations.
Here's some example I do on regular basis.
If you observe me well, I often look up to the sky because it's just so beautiful, with or without clouds, stormy or not, starry or not, moonless or not, sunny or not, the sky makes my soul fly. I would just stare at it, admire whatever it has. It's like an endless void for your mind to go wild, your soul to run free, to feel non-existent for awhile, just so.. spacious.
I would look up and think to myself..
"What a wonderful day.. Hi, sky. You're looking beautiful once more. Your beauty never fails to amaze me, your simplicity makes every complications fade away."
And it's always nature that makes me feel this way, makes me think in the tone like the video up there. It calms you down and make you feel in control of the situation that's happening now. It's like you and yourself are two different people, but you can control yourself and yourself can't control you. That's why, I love to be with myself, figuring things out, making wild imaginations and have fun with my mind.. Simple pleasures makes me happy enough.
"Hey, the grass is in such luscious green! Beautiful!"
"Wow, the flowers are blooming! The wonder of nature is amazing."
"Ohmygosh, this view is fantastic! If only life would be this great."
"Birdies!! My mini dinosaurs, looking so retarded-ly cute."
"It would be awesome if every animal could speak English."
"The breeze is so soft, so relaxing, so calming, Daddy, how are you up there?"
"These little stars, twinkling in the dark. Beautiful night sky.."
"Look at that man dozing off! Must have been tiring today."
"Look at these people rushing for the train, squeezing and frowning. Why not be early, don't get a frown and sleep before work starts. If you are gonna be late for work/school, be late, then go ahead and take your time."
I'm often seen detached from the world, staring at one corner, making me looked worried over something and if anyone were to talk to me, I'm blurred out. At these moments, I'm thinking about life, my life, your life, human life, animal's lives, and the meaning of being alive. I think about the whys, I find the answers to satisfy, and it's all done in my mind. I could just live in this mental world for life, honestly. It's so much carefree, it's so much fun, and much of serenity.
The world's too chaotic.
What I want for my life, is to people watch everyday. Just sit down and look.. Look at how pathetic the world has become and spotting positive people, watch the day go by and have a good night's sleep.
Realization is an amazing feeling.
It gives you a clearer view of your life now.
For me, as much as I want to have a relaxing carefree life.. I don't really live the life I want, I just live the life I have to live in and trying to make it fit the life I want, as much as possible. I just go with the flow, even if I'm much of a failure in life.
'cause in the end, we die. We all, die.
No one's gonna remember like, OH! There was this girl who was called Wanqiu, didn't have job, she roam the streets, she lived off her parents, she tried her best and did her best in everything. Nobody liked her. She has a blog of her thoughts and life. She talks to herself.
Nope. No one's ever gonna notice this life of mine in the future, no one's gonna learn anything from my life. So, I'll notice and learn it myself. As long as I'm good with myself, I'm good.
If everyone knows how to appreciate and love, I swear, the world would be much awesome and there won't be much grievances.
I view my life like in the video, so that I can see what life wants me to see, I feel what life wants me to feel. I realise things I have to realise, I help people realise the things they've been pushing away and I love helping people to do what they think they can't, only the good things.
Life is not simple, of course. But it's made up of many simple things that everyone complicates it.
Like I said, mindless thoughts. I hope I don't ruin your brain.
Do note: I'm positively negative, I'm not doing self-pity, I don't want any encouragements, I just want you to realise that things can be this simple, happiness can be this easily achieved. After all, life is really just.. nothing to you in the end. Let it be, yet striving hard.
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